Of all the clairvoyants online Brenda chose Roberta because she worked as a shaman.
“I don’t know what to do,” Brenda said. “I just don’t seem to be attracting the right men. My disasters are increasing by leaps and bounds.”
The shaman asked Brenda a few serious questions about herself and then she ordered her to become silent so that she could capture Brenda’s energy through the Skype waves. Three minutes passed when finally the shaman spoke. “You trust too much. You think everyone is great.”
“I like to give people a chance,” Brenda said.
“Chancy-smancy,” said the shaman. “People got to prove their worthy of your trust. Don’t just give it away. Trust is a valuable commodity.”
She then told Brenda to be quiet again for she could feel she was reaching Brenda’s energy field. Again the shaman spoke. “Your essence is telling me that you were born with the incapacity to recognize idiots. And because they know they won’t be rejected by you they are drawn towards you. It’s like you’ve got a bumper sticker on you that says: use me you idiot.”
Brenda was flabbergasted. She had never heard such nonsense in her entire life and yet her insecurity inspired her to ask, “Why do you think that happens?”
“Questions about the source are not worth wasting your time over,” Roberta said. “What’s important is what is happening right in front of your eyes right now. Wisdom is being wise about one’s weaknesses and being able to overcome them. Why do you allow these men to invade you? They’re polluting your emotional well-being.”
“But how do I not do that?” Brenda asked.
“Now that you know this about yourself, you can be more vigilant. Listen. Be alert. The universe will offer you plenty of opportunities to practice rejecting idiots. That’s what you must learn to do before you are able to attract a man of your essence. Also remember that it’s not good enough to know what you don’t want. You also have to know what you do want.”
That was a week ago and this Saturday evening Brenda was feeling especially depressed. All her girlfriends were with their boyfriends and she craved to have the companionship and warmth of a man next to her. She had cleaned all day and had wondered if this was what was to become of her life: work on a novel that she wasn’t even certain would sell; Randy with his new girlfriend that made her feel old; her best friend, Campbell still in India. Brenda wanted more. With this commotion going through her, Brenda opened her computer and found this message waiting for her.
Eclectic. Balanced. Doesn’t sweat the small stuff. Drama or theatre is not wanted. Architecture. Nice meal in a quaint ethnic restaurant. Relationship leading to marriage. Would love to meet you.
He was also good looking.
Brenda sent him a message in which she said she’d like to communicate further with him and received this as reply:
To be 100% honest, I had reviewed your profile
carefully before you wrote me and I felt very cautious because I
was too attracted to your physical appearance. Everything you expressed as an interest is mirrored by myself in double. I suspect we would be great together.
In many ways!! However ..once burned twice shy they say. I can’t
allow myself to be swept away by physical appearance and PLEASURE
again…what are your thoughts???
How could this be that she was still attracting idiots?
She then remembered the shaman’s words: you must learn to reject idiots in order to attract a man of your essence.
Brenda immediately wrote back: What are my thoughts? I think you’re an idiot.
She then pressed the send button.
She thought of something else the shaman had told her. That she had to think about what she wanted. All she wanted was to get wrapped up in a man as much as he was wrapped up in her. Hot sex. That’s what she wanted. Maybe Randy’s suggestion of her going for a younger guy wasn’t such a bad idea. There were plenty of men in their twenties who had shown interest in her. Until now, she had scoffed at the idea.